Award Winning Author
The Body Snatcher
He’s invaded my brain and my body
I am becoming him
I talk to strangers on the street
And give hugs to people I’ve never seen before
Telling jokes and laughing
Who am I?
How did he take me over
The world needs John’s joy and good will
He left me to fill up the empty space
Something comes from me and I look inside
“What’s happening to you, Erica?”
I like this new person
And she is so familiar
Just a female version
Not completely
I cannot duplicate him
But I can borrow him.
I am freer with me
Rebirth
Fresh start
A need to keep John alive
He would pat me on my back and say, “Go girl.”
Then he’d laugh - with me.
I hope he hangs around
I hope he keeps feeding me his love
For that is what made John so joyful
His love for life
His love for me
Exploded from his being.
He shared John.

Mama Nature
“I shall not drop my leaves this year”, said the tree
“Well, then, the Queen can be happy with no mating”, buzzed the drone
While the annual in the garden whispered, “I am going to force my flower to bloom forever.”
Hard for us to accept
Tears mark the ends
We search our world to see how we fit
We too have a birth
A life
And a death.
Some learn acceptance
And gratitude
Some rebel
With stubborn denial
Look around
Nothing stays the same
Waves on the sand
Change each grain
Trees blow, leaves fall
Impermanent world
Wishing for more
Makes me sad
My time will come
I hope I can say, “Thank you.”

My husband, John Baccus, was diagnosed with Alzheimer's on January 20, 2020.
John accepted his fate with grace and his usual joy for life. However, as we had discussed many times in our forty-one years of a magical marriage, neither of us wanted to live life in a vegetative state. John was adamant that if his brain was diminished, he wanted to find a way to end his life on his own terms.
It took me two years to find a way to help my husband die.
This is John about a week before he died.
A Promise Kept, Honoring HIs Wishes, Embracing Our Love
I simply couldn't help but write.
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